Monday, February 9, 2009

drained

Yesterday we had to do one of the hardest things we've ever had to do - admit a child to a psychiatric hospital. We knew he had problems to start with, why else would he be in foster care, right?

It's hard to understand how a child who can be so happy and obedient one moment can lose total control of his ability to reason the next. I can't stop wondering what we could/should have done differently, but the bottom line is some children, in and out of foster care are emotionally and mentally disturbed. We really had no choice when our family's safety (and his) was threatened.

I have alot of things going through my mind, but mostly (1) It was presumptuous of us to believe we could help him in such a short period of time and (2) what hope is there for people like this? During the admission process, there was an older gentleman admitting his 29 year old son as well. He commented that his son was about the same age as our foster son when he was first admitted.

I'm emotionally drained right now and feel defeated. I'm sad for what we had to do and for any scars we added to his heart.

2 comments:

Jen said...

praying for you. I guess some things went downhill since we last talked. Sorry! I know you wanted things to be totally different.

Desiree' said...

The Lord knows, my dear friend. He can help your foster son. Things are not right on this earth to bring your foster son to this point anyway. Pour it out to HIM!! Love you lots and saying prayers for you and your family.